Without drinking I have had to learn how to socialise without alcohol. How to be the only sober person at a party. And, also how to be me without alcohol. I started off by "faking it" with mocktails and drinking juices out of wine glasses.
It kept people off my back. I cursed myself for not learning to drive so I would have a valid excuse not to be drinking.
As time has passed I have become more comfortable not drinking, my friends have become used to it and I even had a cup of tea at a party I was at a few weeks ago. Everyone else was drinking and I didn't feel self concious or embarrassed.
I have learned to dance sober and to embrace the morning after when everyone else is suffering I can enjoy the day.
I'm not going to lie, if someone waved a magic wand and made me able to drink again I would, but I am ok with what life had dealt me in the drinking stakes now. Time is a great healer as they say and it has healed my discomfort.